Some days are better than others. I feel like I just need to move on from this. Some days I feel like I’m over it, and others I feel like I want to just take her back. If I did take her back, I’m scared that she would still get upset. She’d probably still get mad at me because we can hangout a lot. I don’t want to go through that again. I guess it’s true that my friend broke up with his girlfriend to be with her. But she tells me that she doesn’t want to be with him and she never will be with him. She wants to be with me. It just seems so weird for someone to break up with their girlfriend of two years or so to go behind his friends back and be with his ex girlfriend of like three days… They had to of talked about it. That’s a bold move to do that just hoping that he could get her. I want to believe her, but idk. It’s like she told me everything I wanted to hear. It’d be so easy to just go back after the things she said, but I don’t trust her anymore. I need to be smart about this. I can’t go back to her.
So my girlfriend broke up with me on Monday. One of the weirdest situations. It doesn’t even seem real. I feel like it’s my fault, she feels like it’s hers. I work seven days a week and have to wake up early most days. We didn’t get to see each other as often as we would have liked to. We finally got a chance to talk about it and she said that she can’t do it anymore. She’s just going to keep getting mad and she doesn’t just want to hang out occasionally. I get it, but I don’t know. We were doing pretty well. And it seemed very easy for her to just let it go. I don’t really know what to think about it. But I’ve heard that she was obsessed with someone before we were together. I never knew that. He’s a friend of mine and we’ve all actually hung out together. I never thought of anything back then, but now I’m starting to. He has had a girlfriend for like two years or so, they have an apartment together. I just found out they broke up because he wanted someone else… Now I’m freaking out putting all of these pieces together. I think of all these different scenarios and just don’t know what to do right now. It sucks that we broke up, but ive been doing okay with it, but this kind of changes how I feel about things. If its true, what kind of asshole do you have to be to get another boyfriend three days after. How much of an asshole do you have to be to break up with your girlfriend of two years to steal your friends girlfriend… I don’t even know if any of this is true, but that won’t stop me from thinking about it.
I miss that summer when we stayed up til 2 in the morning watching YouTube videos, talking about everything. Remember that night we watched Bob Ross! I miss you. I miss how things were.
Am I ever going to be happy? Never thought I’d lose someone because I work too much..
Get to set up the gallery at work today! Series of 140 photos.. gonna be interesting. Gonna be a good day
Fight with the best friend. Made the gf mad. All around good day. Ugh
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